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Fae’s Light, Chapter 5

It was a small window facing the outside wall, but it let in enough morning light to burn Tyr’s eyes. Sitting cross-legged on the floor, he racked his brain for ways he might help that young man from the courtyard. Breaking out of his cell wouldn’t gain him any favors with his host, he was sure, but waiting around might drive him to the brink. The viscount had a sourness about him, and if he was willing to have his own flesh and blood hauled away by guards, Tyr shuddered to think what he might do to an intruder.

A bad feeling usually proved itself correct, if one waited around long enough, Tyr figured.

The heavy door creaked open, scraping against the wooden door sill, the viscount’s ruddy face poking through the gap.

“I haven’t had my breakfast yet, so I suggest you keep your answers brief and very simple.” He stepped in, flanked by the two guards who had escorted Tyr the night before. There didn’t seem to be too many unfamiliar faces here, the city being small as it was.

Tyr stood and brushed his hands off on his trousers. There was nowhere to go, and he wasn’t thrilled to be outnumbered.

“Well? Do you understand?” the viscount snapped, jowls quaking. 

Tyr shifted his eyes between the two men on either side of the viscount and finally looked the round bastard in the face. All he could think of was the chaos in the garden as they dragged away a suffering man as his father gave orders like his son was livestock. His hands balled to fists, but he swallowed his temper like burning bile.

“Yes. I understand. Though, if you’d rather take breakfast first, I believe I can tolerate the delay. I do have a way of getting under the skin, and if you’re already irritable—”

“Enough,” he turned and waved his guards out of the room. They exchanged a look, but their hesitation only pulled a swift, commanding, “Get out,” from their lord. The viscount turned and moved to the wooden chair by the table, yanking it toward him with a squeal of the wooden legs against the floor. The furniture croaked its protest when he sat, but seemed to support him just the same.

Opting to stand, Tyr stared unblinking at his captor, arms folded.

“You said you were a doctor. Is that true or were you simply here to rob me?”

“I was not trying to rob you. I was here to investigate the rumors about your son and perhaps find a remedy for whatever torments him. I wanted to ensure he was receiving proper care.”

The viscount’s shoulders drooped, and he tugged a handkerchief from his sleeve, mopping his forehead the same fashion he had the night before: weary and familiar, though he was nowhere near as bursting with sweat as he had been. “They say he is plagued by demons sent by the Otherworld. I think they are afraid to tell me they have no earthly idea what’s wrong with him,” he confessed, stuffing he handkerchief back up his sleeve. “I have watched my son fall from vibrancy and enthusiasm to a paranoid, screaming wraith of a thing. Whatever demons they say haunt him, I would pay a good deal to have them gone. A king’s ransom, you might say.”

The tension slid from Tyr after that moment, and he stepped toward the other wooden chair. “May I?” When the viscount waved him on, he settled down and rubbed his palms on his knees. “It sounds as though you’re trying to bribe me to do a job I came here to do in the first place. My lord, you must understand that your son is not plagued by demons or whatever nonsensical thing your doctors are selling. He needs medicine, and I can help.”

“I’ve heard that quite a lot in the last several months. I am rather at the end of my rope. Even if you did come to rob me, it isn’t as though you’ve got much to steal here. You claim you can help my son, Tyr Cairwyn, so I will put you to the test.” The viscount sat a bit straighter, trying to regain the authoritative bearing befitting of his station.

All Tyr could see was a man pushed to exhaustion now that they were in the light of day, without the eyes of a dozen guards and staff to see the man sag like a sack of grain.

“I would appreciate that opportunity.”

“And if you make this situation worse in any way, I will have your hide. I hope there is no misunderstanding there.”

“No, my lord. That’s perfectly clear. How should I begin?” What little relief he felt knowing he made his way in, even if he got himself a little arrested doing so, faded when the viscount thrust a finger in his face.

“I’m not sure you do understand. When I say I will have your hide, I do mean it in a physical sense. It will hang on my wall. Yes?”

He swallowed hard. “Yes. Of course.”

“Good.” His captor rose and tugged down his doublet to cover the bottom of his belly. “I will have you brought to Niclas’ apartments, where you and he can share breakfast. Get him comfortable with you. The moment he sees you as someone to put a stop to his… affliction, he will be rebellious and difficult. Approach him delicately.” The viscount opened the door and stepped out, turning back to Tyr. “At least you don’t look like a doctor.” He looked Tyr up and down, and started down the hall. “I will send someone for you.”

When the door shut, Tyr scrubbed his face with his palms and groaned. Leave it to Raghnal to get him into a situation where he was likely to get himself skinned alive if he didn’t succeed. Success wasn’t his strong suit the last few years.

Within minutes, the door opened, and a bowing girl stepped in. He had to wonder if she could even see where she was going, bent in half like that. She made it to the rug, before rising, fidgeting with her apron. He was sure there were rumors about him after his entrance last night, and it didn’t appear that they were good rumors, judging by his escort’s behavior.

He stood, and tilted his head. “You’ve come to take me to Master Niclas’ room?”

She finally lifted her eyes to meet his, quickly, as if she didn’t realize she hadn’t announced herself yet, but took a step back. “Yes, sir. If you’ll follow me, sir.”

“Lead the way,” he said, falling into step beside her as she slipped out of the room. “Do you know much about the young lord’s current condition? Can you tell me what people are saying about him?”

A heavy hesitation, but she glanced sidelong at him, and ducked her head. “He’s a sick man, sir. Plagued by demons.”

“Sickness can be cured by medicine, though, can’t it? If he’s plagued by demons, that implies the need for a spiritual healer or a priest to intervene. Have they?” Tyr slid his hands into his pockets. Faking theological debate was always fun, but he couldn’t justify poking fun at this girl. She was concerned for Niclas, whatever his condition may be.

“Yes, sir. They couldn’t help him.” She spun on him then, her unease replaced with desperation. “He was a nice boy, sir. Even as he grew into authority, sir, he has always been kind to us.” She was walking frantically backward now, facing him. “It only makes sense that there are demons tormenting him now, and it isn’t fair. Master Niclas is a good man.”

The girl’s heel caught a wrinkle in the carpet, and her arms flew above her head as she stumbled backward, but Tyr darted forward and caught her by the elbow. Once she was back on her feet, her face was so red he was sure he could have cooked an egg on it.

“I’m not doubting his worth as a person, and I promise you I’ll treat him with absolute respect and care.” He drew a deep breath as she hung her head. “What’s your name?”

Again, she hesitated. Doubtless, she thought he would have her scolded for her outburst. “Selene, sir.”

With his hand still on her elbow, he began walking again, gently guiding her with him, before letting her go. “I don’t think that Master Niclas has demons in his ear, Selene, but I will find out what he does have tormenting him. You aren’t the first who’s told me he’s a good man, and I witnessed his treatment last night. Whatever you hear, can you bring it to me when it’s convenient to you? Anything you think might be useful or even if it’s just something that doesn’t sit right with you?”

“I—Yes, sir. Is someone trying to harm him?”

Tyr offered a reassuring smile. “No one in the viscount’s employ, but I feel that people hear things and they talk about those things, even if they think they’re unimportant. Can you help me with that?”

“I don’t want to get anyone into trouble, sir.”

“I’ll not be reporting any of this to the guards or the viscount. It will only be for my own, personal work with Master Niclas. I know I technically broke into your employer’s estate in the middle of the night, but my intentions are good. I assure you, you can trust me when it comes to my work.”

She stopped outside of a door at the end of a hall and gave a nod. “Yes, sir. If you think it will help Master Niclas, I will tell you anything that I hear.” She pushed the handle down, and stepped into the room.

The curtains were drawn, heavy velvet obscuring the better part of the room, with bright sunlight pooling at the top and bottom of the massive window, with a quilt tacked up in the center to break the wind. A haze of incense and extinguished candle smoke hung in the air, the scent of burning tallow and what Niclas thought might be ginger and something else, something earthy making his nose tingle.

“Master Niclas,” Selene curtsied deeply, holding it as she spoke. “I’ve brought the visitor from the courtyard last night, as per the viscount’s request, sir. Doctor–.” She froze when she realized she didn’t know his name, and Tyr stepped forward into the dark room.

“Tyr Cairwyn, my lord.” He bowed, but did not hold it the way that Selene had. Instead, he rose and stepped deeper into the room. “I’ve asked your father if I might take breakfast with you.”

“My father ordered you to take breakfast with me.” The voice was tired, hoarse, and the figure that slid from the shadows seemed like a shell of a man, worse even than Tyr remembered from the night before. “You saved my life. Whether the old fool ordered it or not, I think breakfast is reasonable.”

Niclas was a wraith. He looked like a statue left in the elements for years, weathered and beaten down, the weight of the rain boring holes into him. His dark hair curled at the nape of his neck in unruly tufts, but the top was matted to his forehead with a shine of sweat. The dark circles around his eyes finished off his fresh-from-the-grave look, and Tyr winced.

“When was the last time you slept, my lord?” he asked, despite the viscount’s warning to speak with him casually first. 

“Right to it.” Niclas offered a wry laugh. “Thank you, Selene. You can tell my father I won’t be tearing our guest’s heart out and eating it just yet.”

Selene paled and backed out of the room. “I’ll bring your breakfast, Master Niclas.” Tyr could imagine she might he hesitant at this point.

The door shut, and Tyr turned his attention squarely on the viscount’s haggard son. “I was told to befriend you, but I don’t like false pretenses.”

“I appreciate that. He sends his glorious finds in here to soothe my savage tendencies. I don’t need another priest.” Niclas draped himself languidly into a high-back chair, upholstered with a rolling landscape of hills and flowers. The seat was torn, but he didn’t seem to care. “And, with respect, Doctor Cairwyn, a doctor can’t help me, either.”

“I know that. Your father would have executed me, I think, if I hadn’t given him a proper lie. A doctor seemed a safe bet, all things considered.”

Niclas laughed a little, but it sounded so hollow.

“I was sent by a rival of your acquaintances.” Tyr stepped a bit deeper into the room and took a seat in a chair that looked like someone had smashed it into a million pieces, then hastily glued it back together. It creaked under him.

The amusement slid from Niclas’ face and exhaustion replaced it. A furrow formed between his eyes and those dark circles almost looked darker. He leaned back in his chair, stretching his back out like a stray cat. “They didn’t board the window back up, so I have to assume they’re hoping the problem solves itself. If that’s the case, then why send you?”

“Desperation, probably. The viscount thinks I’m a doctor, and you know I’m not. This can move in two directions.” Tyr leaned forward, elbows resting on his knees, his hands clasped before him.

“Only two?”

“Only two that matter. You can believe that I came to help you, you can trust me, and we can work on getting you free from your bargain you made,” Tyr shrugged a bit. “Or you can expose my position to your father and you can watch him skin me alive and hang my hide on his wall. His words.”

A little smile reappeared on Niclas’ lips, and he shook his head. “He would, too.”

“I have little doubt,” Try laughed wryly and rubbed the back of his neck, as if the thought piled tension across his shoulders.

“But you wouldn’t be caught. You came in here without a single soul knowing you breached the wall. Didn’t raise a single alarm. I find it had to believe you couldn’t just spirit yourself away.”

“I’m not made of smoke, my lord,” Tyr laughed. The chair groaned as he shifted his weight, and he tried not to grimace. “I’m as flesh and blood as you are. I just happened to catch your father’s security detail off guard, I suppose. I only came in through a hole in the wall, hoping it might make it easier to request audience with the viscount.”

“An audience on my behalf.” It wasn’t a question. Niclas was more astute than he let on, or perhaps less afflicted by the demons everyone claimed whispered in his ear.

Cautiously, Tyr milled over his next words, rolling them around in his head for a moment before he nodded. “Yes, my lord. On your behalf. Though, to say it was out of altruism wouldn’t be quite true. Your current state is upsetting a certain balance in the Fae realm of Magh Meall, and I’ve been tasked with putting a stop to it. Lucky for you, it’s to your benefit.”

“Is it?” Niclas leaned back in his chair and slumped a little. “You have no plans to execute me, then?”

A stone sank in Tyr’s stomach, and he furrowed his brow. “Of course not. Who has you under the impression that someone would be along to execute you?”

Silence stretched between them, but Niclas wouldn’t meet his eyes, even as he waited for an answer. He’d been shut up in this room for long enough that the air smelled a bit sour under the incense, and, from all accounts he’d heard, even the window had been shuttered to keep Niclas’ screams in.

“Everyone believes you to be ill, my lord, but I would like to create a trend of complete honesty between us. Do you think that would be possible?” Tyr asked, and the young lord let his eyes fall shut in response, not bracing, but… accepting.

“I shan’t struggle, doctor. I’m quite tired, and the possibility of what I might have gained from this terrible decision weighs on me heavier every day. I only ask that you make it quick.” He did look up then, a wan smile tipping the corner of his lips faintly. “I’m nothing if not a coward.”

Rolling his eyes, Tyr pushed himself to his feet and crossed to the broken window, peeking out the curtains and yanking down the quilt.. Someone had fitted sturdier shutters outside, but didn’t bother boarding the gaping hole in the room at the same time. 

“Tell me what happened. How you came to be here.” Tyr leaned forward, a hand bracing on the window frame.

“I’ve told you, doctor, there is no medicine that will help me. This is a bed I made myself, and it is my fate to lie in it.” He leaned back, folding his arms around himself, averting his eyes.

Tyr turned just enough to see Niclas from where he leaned on the wall. “Well, you’re not a vampire, my lord. Don’t mistake wallowing for suffering.” He threw the draperies wide, and let the sunlight stream in, leaving Niclas to throw an arm over his eyes to shield them. “You made an ill bargain with the Fae, and now they’re tormenting you to uphold your end. You’re frightened, but the dark certainly can’t shield you from them, if that’s your aim.”

“I wasn’t hiding—”

“What was the bargain, Niclas?”

The young noble’s arm dropped, his hand falling heavily into his lap, and he stared at Tyr as if he’d been slapped. Mouth working to form a word he couldn’t find, Niclas scooted himself a bit stiffer in his seat.

Tyr rounded the chair and sat back down, elbows back on his knees. “Was it for power? Money? Women?”

Niclas scoffed, his face still twisted in the light. He looked so pale, and the circles under his eyes were like coal smudges, dark and angry.

“It’s usually one of the three.” Tyr tried to keep his tone even, but the way Niclas sat there, first smug and now furiously panicked, aggravated him. Did he think he was clever? Did he expect his clandestine deal to be some grand secret?

“You could have paid with your life.”

“I expect I still might,” Niclas said, his voice hoarse like paper rubbing together. “I didn’t ask for power or sex or anything like that. I didn’t expressly ask for anything, if you must know.”

“I must know,” Tyr confirmed, brow knitting. “What do you mean you didn’t ask for anything? How did they come to you if you didn’t summon them?”

Niclas drew a quaking breath, and his voiced hitched against his words. “I begged the gods for help, and what came to me looked godlike enough. I didn’t expect—” He cut himself off with a shuddering sigh, and squeezed his eyes shut. “I told the god I was worried for my father. Our estate is broke. No one knows yet, but the king has sent messages, asking my father’s support in his campaign to rid the countryside of the Istre. My father has refused time and again, not just because chasing the Istre out would be immoral, but because doing so would disrupt rural commerce.

“Naturally, with my father’s poor financial standing now, the king is looking to unseat him and install a viscount who would bend to his will.” He dragged the back of a hand under his eyes, drying his tears as they welled up. “When I was through explaining, the god—Fae. That’s what he said he is. Not a god. The Fae said he would help my father. I couldn’t turn him down. Not with so much at stake. I want my family to be all right, and I know my father will never give in to eradicating innocent people for the king’s campaign for… for purity.” His lips turned down as he spat the word.

“Purity,” Tyr said, rolling it across his tongue like a rotten grape. He would have to come back to that. “What did he give you? The Fae. What did he give you and at what price?”

Red-eyed and looking positively downtrodden, the viscount’s son leaned back in his chair, tipping his head back to look up at the ceiling.

“He gave my father stability. I don’t know what that means. I don’t know. He just said that our family would be safe from the king and financial ruin if I—” He pressed the heels of his palms into his eyes and let out a sob.

More often than not, Tyr met with people who gave up more than they understood to have a little of something fleeting. And it never worked out the way they imagined it to. The Fae always took more than they let on, and their marks always wound up worse off than when they started. Opening one’s self up to Fae interference gave nothing but a headache.

“What did you promise them?” he coaxed gently, even as Niclas continued to dissolve across from him. “I can help you, Niclas, but you’ve got to talk to me.”

“My mind. He asked me to devote my thoughts to him. It seemed innocuous enough, and I agreed, because what sort of son would I be if I allowed my family to fall apart when I only have to sacrifice a few thoughts.” Another sob punctuated his words, and gave his head an aggressive shake. “But it’s not a few thoughts, doctor. It’s every thought. Every moment I’m alone, my thoughts are tormented by visions of him. I think he thinks it’s funny. He’ll show up and give me visions of my death or fires or other awful things I can’t stop. 

“When he comes, I never know what he’ll do. Sometimes, he just sits here and talks to me, and I wait for the blade to fall. Other times, he’ll torment me with questions, but… they aren’t just questions, doctor. They… create things in my mind, and those things feel so real that… that—”

“That you’ll jump out a window to escape them.” Tyr said quietly.

Niclas wasn’t crying anymore, but his face was blotchy and puffed.

He just sat back in his chair, head tilted back, occasionally hiccuping with a sob now and then.

“He doesn’t want your thoughts or your adoration, Niclas. He took advantage of your naivety. It’s possible he wants your mind, literally. Sanity is a powerful thing, and so is perceived insanity.” Tyr bit his lip, his focus falling to the floor. “It doesn’t mean you’re actually going mad.”

Niclas barked a laugh, but he fell immediately sober, his eyes darkening as he leaned forward. “What does that mean, exactly? He plans to drive me mad?”

“It wouldn’t be the first time madness was part of a bargain of this kind. But true madness comes with a sort of clarity, and you’re not being driven quite that far. At least not yet.” Tyr glanced up at the door as the latch clunked free, and it swung inward. Selene carried a tray with a cloth draped over most of it, an exposed pitcher on the right side, a sheen of dew glazing the crystal, and another on the left, steaming through the pour spout.

 “Forgive the intrusion.” She managed a curtsy, even with her hands full.

Tyr was on his feet in a second, lifting the tray out of her hands. “Thank you, Selene.”

Peeking around him, her brow knit and she tried to scoot around him to get to Niclas. “What’s wrong with him, sir?”

Tyr slid between her and the young lord, holding the tray out of the way on one hand. “We’re working through that right now.”

“It’s alright, Selene. The doctor is already helping immensely,” Niclas stated, though, perhaps not quite as convincing as he could have been, were his voice not thick with tears.

Tyr took a cup from the tray, dripping with condensation, and held it out to the young lord. With a shaking hand, Niclas took the cup and glanced into it, wrinkling his nose.

“Water. I’ll take some wine, Selene. Thank you.” He thrust the cup outward, at no one in particular.

Furrowing his brow, Tyr pushed the cup back at him, though Niclas resisted only slightly. “You’ll drink the water and save the wine for when you’re well.”

Niclas’ lips tightened, and he bobbed a curt nod. Selene’s attention darted between them, settling on Tyr and his firm bearing over the viscount’s willful son. Tyr would swear she refused to blink at him. How dare he, after all?

“I’ll look after him, I promise,” he said, setting the tray on the low table before the sofa. “Please send him some dinner when the time comes. I’ve little doubt he’s been skipping meals.”

With a pained smile, Selene bent a curtsy and slipped out of the room. 

“I’d like to face this properly drunk.”

“I’ll bet you would.” Tyr plopped down in a chair opposite him, resting his forearms on his knees. “Once you’ve confronted the Fae who are tormenting you, we’ll hopefully be able to deconstruct this deal and get you out of it. I’ve been asked to make certain you come out of this in once piece.”

Brow furrowing, Niclas threw himself backward in his chair and stared at Tyr, dark eyes boring into him. “Asked by whom?” he said after a time, his voice level now, even though the tears had stained his face with blotches of red. “My father’s given up on me. He wouldn’t have sought you out. I’ve been penned in up here since the first time I—” He swallowed hard.

Tyr stayed silent. Niclas turned the possibilities over in his mind, but the sudden sag in his shoulders told Tyr he came up empty.

“Someone I’ve worked closely with in the past has a stake in your… benefactor’s failure to gain a political foothold in Angharad. Your father may be aiming to hide you away here, but you’ve become quite sought after by those from whom he can’t hide you.” Tyr nodded to the water, and, after a moment, the young noble took it in hand and sipped at it, his lips curling as he fought it down. “I need you to tell me everything.”

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Fae’s Light, Chapter 4

There was a moment of space and perfect silence as the handful of guards at their normal, boring posts stared, frozen in horror, while their young lord plummeted headlong out of the tower window. That silence set Tyr’s hear to racing, and, before he could think better of it, the Fae magic he knew so intimately rushed up through the soles of his feet. Fissures burst open along his fingers, hands, cracking like broken pottery up to his shoulders.

A cyclone erupted under his feet, launching him into the air. He hadn’t thought this far ahead. The bottom of his stomach dropped out as he reached his peak—but just before his momentum began to fade, he collided chest-first with the viscount’s son. At least his aim had been true. With just enough mental presence at the forefront of his panic, he threw a crackling hand out to the side, toward the ground, as it flew up at them. Water welled to the surface, softening the dirt to a muddy mire.

It didn’t exactly create a pile of feathers, but when Tyr struck the ground with his shoulder and the weight of a grown man in his arms, the swampy ground he had created accepted them with a sloshy, wet squelch.

The world turned in slow motion until that moment. Then, all at once, it rushed back together, and there were halberds thrust at his face. He threw his hands up to release the fallen lord, whom he had assumed was the Honorable Lord Niclas of Aeliss he came to see.

Niclas toppled onto his back in the mud, and scrambled frantically backward, hands sinking in the mud as he pushed back with his feet.

“My lord, please calm down!” One of the guards broke rank to approach Niclas, settling his halberd on the ground.

Niclas jerked away, throwing a muddy hand up between them.

“Restrain him before he hurts himself.” Three men rounded the far end of the house, the leader dressed for company, dinner perhaps. “Who the hell are you?”

Tyr’s hands were still up and open, displayed for the guards to see. “I don’t exactly know how to answer that question,” he said flatly, sparing a glance for the man who took charge.

Two guards had Niclas under the arms, hauling him to his feet.

“He just fell out of a window. You’re being a bit rough, gentlemen, don’t you think?” Tyr asked, casting a sidelong glance to the young man the guards were dragging off.

“That’s not quite your concern, I’d say.” The official-looking man in the fancy clothes stepped toward him, drawing out a handkerchief from his sleeve and mopping his substantial brow. He was trimmed in green and gold, frills and puffs sprouting from cuffs and collar, and yet he strode about that yard like a soldier. “How would you say you came into this estate?”

“My name is Tyr Cairwyn, sir. I’m a doctor, of sorts, and, while I admit I came thanks to certain rumors about a young lad’s misfortune in health, I only stumbled in through a gap in the wall.” He kept one hand raised, using the other to point back the way he had come, into the darkness behind his captors. “Back that way.”

The broad man scoffed, stuffing the handkerchief back up his sleeve, and looked Tyr over from head to toe. “Impossible. My estate is perfectly secure.”

“Of course, sir. My mistake, I’m sure.” Tyr slowly pushed himself to his feet, trying to look his least imposing. A challenge at his height. “I’m afraid I cannot give a reasonable explanation, then. I hope you will take my word when I tell you I’m here to help.”

One of the guards whispered to the viscount, and Tyr caught a look of horror, but only briefly, before the guard was waved impatiently away.

Before Tyr could even wonder at the guard’s whisper, a splash of water and a gasp sounded from the corner of the estate house. He turned to find the guards soaking the hysterical young man with buckets of water from a horse trough. Every time a bucketful hit, he yelped at the impact.

“Enough!” Tyr shouted and marched toward them. A halberd blocked his path, but he ducked under it, as if the guard weren’t even there.

“Sir, this is none of your—”

“It is absolutely my concern, sir, because, as I said—” he whirled around to face the viscount, “I am here on rumor of an infirm young man. It appears the rumors are true, though I must wonder if he is ill or kept captive.”

“Captive? I’ll have you know that boy is my son, and he is certainly ill. However, we have our own doctors, and your services, whatever they may be, are unnecessary.”

Tyr snatched a full bucket of water from a guard’s hands and doused him with it.

“Get him dry before he catches his death.” He thrust the bucket against the sopping-wet guard’s chest and rounded on the viscount. “With all due respect, sir, your doctors are buffoons if they call for this treatment. I urge you to put his health in my hands and you will see improvement.”

The viscount laughed until he snorted. Tyr took a step back and set his jaw. Of course, the nitwit thought this was funny.

“Lad, I wouldn’t trust you mucking my stables.”

“Sir, he was telling the truth,” a young guardsman said as he came jogging over. “There is in, in fact, a gap in the wall. No rubble or anything, just like someone took the stones away. Not like a proper door, sir. Just a hole.”

The Viscount of Aeliss certainly wasn’t laughing anymore. His face fell into slack disbelief, the color draining from it, as if a cork were plucked out of a hole in his chin.

“Round up all the staff you can find who aren’t attending the banquet. Get the groundskeeper to oversee it all. I want this patched up by midnight.”

Damn his lying. Tyr hated the thought of the servants being punished for his stupid trick, but there wasn’t much he could do about it now. After giving his orders, the viscount made a vague gesture in Tyr’s direction.

“Arrest him, but bring him to my holding cell in the east wing. If I determine he’s not trying to rob us, perhaps I won’t send him to the Agot.” He headed back inside without a backward glance.

The viscount’s son, the young Lord Niclas, was dragged back into the building as well, though he didn’t make a sound as they hauled him around like a sack of grain.

Naturally, they were less gentle with Tyr, though he didn’t fight hard. At least he would be in the estate house. Arrested or not, it was better than scaling a wall or some other stunt to get inside and assess the hold the Fae had on Niclas.

The outside of the estate house was both rustic and lavish. It blended well with the theatre district while still managing to tower above it, looming and imperious. As they escorted him into the building, a stream of servants, all but chased by a grizzly man in a floppy hat, herding them along like goats. The groundskeeper, Tyr was sure. The servants disappeared into the night, and Tyr was ushered inside with a nudge from the point of a halberd.

The east wing was not the jail-like atmosphere he had expected. As they pushed him through the corridors, his head swiveled left and right, taking in tapestries and paintings in warm wood frames, mounted against decorative wall panels with hand-carved moldings. Candles burned brightly in elaborate sconces along the walls, dozens of them. It must have been lovely to spare no expense lighting empty hallways with tallow the commonfolk would kill for.

“Fancy jail. Was I invited to the feast,” he asked, looking back at one of his chaperones, whose response was a simple rough shove to Tyr’s left shoulder. Exaggerating his stumble slightly, Tyr pushed focus to his left foot. The tingle of the fissures crackled inside of his boot. As he pretended to catch his footing, he dropped his heel heavily to the floor, sending a clay tile jutting up a bit to his left.

Just as he’d hoped, the tile caught the guard’s toe and sent him stumbling forward, so close to sprawling on his face that a snort of laughter caught in Tyr’s throat. He wasn’t typically one for pranks, but he’d seen enough of the type of person who tormented suffering people. It wasn’t right, but at least the guard’s almost-nosedive toward the floor was funny.

The guard to Tyr’s right snickered as the other took a few tripping steps forward before managing to right himself. Tyr stifled a grin. He expected another shove, but it appeared that embarrassment did wonders for humility.

Before long, they arrived at a door—completely indistinct from every other door they had passed, as far as Tyr could tell. One of his escorts opened it and motioned him inside.

The guards had all been as nondescript as the dozens of doors they had passed to get here. As he stepped past them, Tyr caught an apologetic smile from the guard to his right. He had a young face, clean-shaven and a bit round, but kind.

The other man was severe—his ruddy face angular and pulled into the center in a frown. A dusting of stubble peppered his jawline, but didn’t quite make it up to his cheeks. If Tyr had to guess, he had about ten years on his counterpart.

“Gentlemen,” he said as the door was shut on him, and the bolt slid home on the other side.

Holding cell, indeed. Tyr turned to find a modest bed on one wall and a single chair. Probably meant to feel stark to the eyes of someone like the viscount, he had to chuckle at the opulent, if clearly well-used, woven Danetheran rug on the floor. He plopped onto the bed, and shook his head with a grin. The mattress was straw, but the pillows were stuffed with goose down, and the whole room smelled of lavender.

If this was to be his prison, he might have to be a problem for a few days.

Fiction Friday

Flash Fiction Friday 10.15.2021

I’m later than I meant to be, but, guys, MY NIECE WAS BORN YESTERDAY! So, I guess enjoy some ominous flash fiction. 😂

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It always came in pairs. Two knocks at the door to signify feeding. Two rings of the bell to demand his attention. Two warnings before they unleashed their wrath.

Their displeasure was inconsistent–flighty. He never know when the door would open to praise or to penalty. But today he was ready. There would be no wondering, no fear.

The click of the lock set his nerves on end, and the creak of the hinge pulled him to his feet. Today, he would show them the meaning of penalty.

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Fae’s Light, Chapter 3

Tyr’s eyes dragged open, heavy and tired, and he slid his hands slid through the grass. It was wet, dew clung to his cheek, matting his sandy hair to his face. He pushed himself up and groaned a little as he climbed to his knees and, finally, to his feet. Angharad rose in gray and blue spires before him, sprawled out beside the river—which his feet had been dangling in, apparently.

Sighing, he squelched in muddy boots up the embankment that led up a hill and into the city, dirt smearing the front of his tunic. He was supposed to be meeting with a viscount’s disgraced son, or something. It was an odd mission to be sent on to begin with, but he wasn’t sure he could keep straight the ranking of the men and women the Unseelie sought to tangle in their webs.

At least Raghnal tossed him out of Magh Meall and into the city. Negotiating with guards without traveling papers was always a challenge, and he hadn’t been gifted with the convenience of a glamour spell.

And now he was dirty on top of it all.

Up the hill, he saw a market in full swing, brightly colored awnings and fluttering banners marked stalls lining the blue-gray walls of the main road. Houses and shops of timber and plaster clung to those same walls a little farther down, giving a sociable warmth to the enormous capital city. Tyr loved the life of it all. Traveling with the show, he saw so many places, but they were generally set in fields and fair grounds—he hadn’t been in the center of a proper city in months.

It smelled and there were too many people. Everything was too loud, too bright, too muddy, but it was alive,and the movement fueled him.

“Apple tarts! Honey bread!” a little girl called out in rolling Angharathan, her tiny voice clear as a bell above the din around her. She couldn’t have been more than ten, and not quite that, Tyr would bet.

“Apple tarts?” Tyr asked, his own Angharathan a little stilted these days. “How much for two?”

The little businesswoman beamed up at him. “Two copper dins. For three, I’ll give you a pork roll, too!”

“A pork roll, too? Are you saying I can’t have dessert for breakfast?” Tyr teased, folding his arms.

She put on her best serious face and nodded stoutly. “That’s right.”

“Well, I haven’t any copper dins, but how about a silver mark?” He held it out, smiling apologetically. “I haven’t been to the counting house yet.”

Her little mouth hung open, and she stared at the mark for a long moment, before picking it up with careful fingers in both hands, as if it were fresh out of the oven, and hopping off of the small box she stood on. Ducking behind a table, she returned with an oval-shaped basket in her arms, offering it up to Tyr.

“Oh, just the tarts would be fine—”

“My mum says it’s too much for just tarts and a roll. You should have it.” She lifted the basket higher, reaching for his chest until he finally accepted it with a quiet laugh.

What he was going to do with a basket full of baked goods, he had no idea.

“Well, thank you. You and your mum are very generous. Good business today, little baker.” He said and headed off with the basket hanging at his elbow.

The sun rose over head as he wound his way through the city streets, pulling at the cheesecloth that covered his extravagant meal of desserts and pork rolls. When he tugged the cover away, he was surprised to find a chunk of some sort of crumbly white cheese, the two apple tarts, three pork rolls, and a plum. A much better meal than sweets, he supposed, and he had to wonder if the girl told her mother his plan to have dessert for breakfast.

While he wished he had a change of clothes, at least he had a fair bit of coin to get by, and he’d be on his little hunt with a full stomach. Taking a moment to look around as he reached an intersection, he tore a bite out of a roll with his teeth.

His stomach growled viciously. Hopping from Magh Meall to the human world always wore him out, but it never failed to surprise him how hungry he was between trips—and after two? He was lucky he hadn’t died of starvation, he was sure.

Everything here was well laid out, but he hadn’t been in Angharad in several years. He  moved down a road that seemed to lean way from the shops and into a quieter district, filled with smiths and leatherworkers and other artisans. It was still bustling here, but there were no hawkers and no stalls. Just shops and workshops, and, down the end, he thought he spotted an inn.

Perfect.

Moving through the men leading horses to a blacksmith, he kept a hold of his breakfast basket so nothing toppled out. It smelled like horses and sweat down here, but it was earthy and industrious. Almost comforting. Even more comforting was the inn sign with only a bed on the wooden slab dangling over the doorframe.

Tyr stepped into the inn and glanced around the common room. It wasn’t exactly a party at this time of day, but there were a few people littering the room. One man was propped by a window at hardly noon, a pint in his hand and his head on the table. There was a woman serving a midday meal of something steaming but not particularly appetizing to two women at a table by the bar. Still, it looked clean, and it didn’t smell like piss, as some common rooms did in cities this size.

“Can I help you?” The same serving woman, full-hipped and tall, approached him, drying her hands on her apron. She stood nearly eye-level with him and didn’t look in the mood for… much of anything, really.

“I was hoping you had a room available, though I suppose it is rather early in the day.” He glanced around at the sparse room again.

She snorted a little and adjusted her hair wrap. “Handsome thing like you, of course you’d sound so educated. Learned your Angharathan from a book, then? We can’t accommodate any lordly wishes here. It’s a simple place.”

Tyr flushed a bit and cleared his throat. “I… I did. I mean, I learned my Angharathan from a book, and from practice with others who also learned from books. I’ve never spent enough time here to sound less stiff, I suppose. I’m not a lord, though. Just a traveler looking for a room. As you might have noticed, I’m filthy. Hardly an acceptable state for a lord.” He spread his non-basket-laden arm to display his filthy shirt, and mud-soaked boots.

“Hm.” She squinted at him, studying him a little, before letting out a round laugh and nodding. “All right, as you say, milord.” She offered a rough curtsy and started up the stairs beside the bar. “Come along then.”

Heaving a sigh, he followed her. At least the place was clean.

When he crested the stairs, the serving woman stood with a key in a door, giving it a jiggle, before turning it over and pushing the door open.

“Gets a bit stuck, this one. Wiggle the key and it’ll pop right in. I’m Asha. My husband is the innkeeper here. His name is Calum. How long will you be staying?” she asked, stepping into the room and fluffing pillows and smoothing the quilt across the bed.

He set his basket on the wooden table by the window, noting there was only one chair. The room itself was enough for him to reach across a time and a half, he expected, but it was still small. He expected a “lord” like himself was being given their finest room. He’d have been happy in a closet with a pillow.

“I’m not certain. A few days, at least. My name is Tyr. I should have introduced myself.”

Asha waved it off and offered him his key. “If you’ll be here day to day, rent is due before nightfall. I’ll take the first fee now. If you decide you need to stay weekly, we can collect every Sol, if you’d not like to continue paying daily.”

Sol. Tyr had to think a moment. He knew the names of the days of their week, but he couldn’t quite remember where they fell. Time was never his strong suit to begin with.

As if she could see him struggling, she patted his shoulder and headed for the door. “Sol is in three days. Today is Fen.”

“Fen.” He smiled, digging out the coins from his pocket and placing them in her outstretched hand. “Thank you.” But as she started out into the hall, he jerked forward. “Wait! Can I ask you a question or two?”

Letting her hand fall from the handle, she gave him an odd look. “I suppose that depends on the questions, milord. Doesn’t it?”

“Of course… and Tyr is fine.” He turned the key over in his fingers absently. “As innkeepers, you and your husband likely hear quite a bit of rumor coming through, is that right?”

“Now, I don’t trade in the personal details of others—”

“Nothing sordid, I give you my word.” He held his hands up in a gesture of peace. “I’ve been sent from quite far away to give a very experimental medical treatment to the son of a certain… noble figure. I need to know how to find this person, since it’s been brought to my attention that he might be eluding his family.”

Asha’s expression sobered and she looked him up and down. “I’ll not be trading in that sort of information.”

Tyr wilted a bit and let his hands drop. “Integrity. I understand. Thank you.”

“Find yourself some fresh clothes and I’ll have those washed for you.” She paused at the door and looked over her shoulder. “Come to the common room tonight for dinner—in cleanclothes—and you can speak with Calum. He may be more inclined to talk with you about that matter than myself, though I don’t condone it. Know that.”

“Yes, of course. Thank you, Mistress Asha.”

“Mistress,” she snorted and rolled her eyes, heading out the door and shutting it behind her.

Tyr plopped onto the bed, careful to keep his disgusting feet on the floor, and breathed a sigh of relief as he collapsed backward.

* * *

As the day wore on, and the city started to slow into an afternoon sleepiness, Tyr found himself milling through shops for fresh clothes. It was hard to find anyone just selling secondhand men’s clothing. It was ludicrous to think anyone in a working area wouldn’t wear through everything they owned.

So, with a heavy disappointment, Tyr patted the coins in his vest pocket and headed into a tailor’s shop. As with most craftsmen, his skills cost what felt like a king’s ransom to Tyr, who had no income to replenish what he’d brought with him. It was going to have to last him, and he could easily wave goodbye to any thought of staying at the unnamed inn on a weekly basis.

Still, at the end of it, he had a fresh clothing, even if the trousers were hastily taken in, the vest was a bit big in the shoulders, and his shirt sleeves came to the middle of his palm instead of to his wrists. He couldn’t afford anything too tailored. He paid the man fairly for the clothing and the quick work he could manage while Tyr waited, though he was suitably annoyed at having to rush his work.

The sun was just coming down in the sky when he left the tailor, and the man shut the door a bit gruffly behind him. If he had had the time and the funds, he’d certainly have waited the week or more for proper clothes, but… there was no time, and he had a rather uncertain appointment.

Into the common room he went, his dirty clothes in a bundle of burlap in his arms. When Asha spotted him, she rushed over and took the bundle, looking him over with a stout nod. Then her eyes reached his boots, and she flicked her eyes back up to his and scowled a little.

He smiled sheepishly. Boots were expensive. He couldn’t just go around buying shoes like the lord she thought him to be.

“I’ll clean them up tomorrow. I apologize.”

She shook her head and motioned toward herself with her fingers. “Off with them. They’re filthy and I’m not washing these floors for you, do you understand?”

“What? Here?” he asked, his voice cracking with indignation.

“Without your boots muddying it up, my floor is spotless. Off with them. You’ll do just fine in your stockings and I’ll wash those tomorrow, too, if it pleases milord.” She stared him down until he caved under the weight of her motherly irritation. He plopped into a chair and yanked off his boots, showing soiled stockings as well. She tutted at him, and took his boots together at the top, carrying them away from herself as she left.

“My wife keeps us quite in line. I apologize if she’s made you uncomfortable.” A man sat in the chair opposite him, younger than he expected for the innkeeper. It made sense, though. Asha looked to be in her mid-thirties, he estimated, and Calum didn’t seem too much older than that, himself. He wore a pair of small, round glasses, and his hair was dark, with just a slight smattering of silver toward the front.

“She didn’t.” Tyr laughed a little, though he wondered how convincing he actually was. “My name is Tyr Cairwyn. I came to help the son of an important man, and I had wondered if anyone was saying anything about his… situation.”

“Mm. Well, I’m Calum. I’m sure Asha mentioned we don’t deal in information here. It’s just an inn.”

“No, no. Of course not. Honestly, I’m here to help this young man, but you know how noble families are. They… hold things back to save face.” Tyr shifted a little. “My intentions are just to get a clear picture of the young man’s plight so that I can help him to the best of my ability.”

The innkeeper worried his lip for a moment before he sighed. “You’re speaking on the Honorable Niclas of Aeliss, son of Lord Cashel of Aeliss, the viscount of this province. He’s been quite… spoken oflately.” Calum traced the lines in the tabletop, fidgeting uncomfortably. It took him a moment to lift his eyes again, but Tyr didn’t push him. He just waited. “Master Niclas is said to be having horrible night terrors and speaking with spirits. Their family home overlooks the theatre district, and Master Niclas used to keep his window open often, to listen to the buskers. But he started waking up at all hours of the night, screaming.”

“Screaming?” Tyr’s brow furrowed.

“Indeed. It upset the people on the streets below so heavily, the theatre district has all but emptied out. No one goes there anymore. Even during they day, they could hear him arguing with no one, howling at the walls. Eventually, they pulled the leaded glass off the hinges and replaced it with iron-strapped wood, like they’re trying to keep more within those walls than just screams.” A shiver ran through Calum then, and he swallowed hard as he shoved himself back from the table. “Forgive me, Master Cairwyn, but I believe that’s all I’m prepared to say about the subject.”

Tyr rose as Calum did, and bowed shortly. “Not at all. Thank you for being so candid. I didn’t quite expect all of that. I will certainly see to his care as quickly as I can.”

He wished his lies felt more like actual lies to him at this point. Calum and Asha seemed like good people, but maintaining that he was there to help the young man in some sort of medical fashion was laughable. There was no way anyone believed he was a doctor.

As his host returned to his work, Tyr settled back down in his chair. As if she’d been monitoring the whole time, Asha set a plate of hot sliced chicken and roasted vegetables down in front of him. He thanked her, and she looked him over with a slight bit of irritation, before heading back off into the kitchen.

Elysia’s caravan would likely be back on its way to the festival by now, though he was sure she’d be fuming over the affront to her performers. Undoubtedly, she’d be fuming at him for leaving. Knowing Raghnal, he might not have hurt those people, but he’d have made things inconvenient at best and frightening at worst. He hadn’t known them long, and he certainly hadn’t known them well, but Tyr didn’t wish anything Raghnal could offer on the performers in their odd little circus.

After being pulled away, Tyr felt himself falling into this familiar step—this means of traversing a world that was never made for him. Raghnal plucked him from the life he was building, and threw him into his own insane quest, as he often did, and Tyr just fell into it as effortlessly as breathing.

Bitterness rose in his chest at the thought of Raghnal’s constant manipulation, and he stamped it down. If nothing else, there was the simple fact that deals with the Fae nearly never ended favorably, and this young lord was clearly feeling the effects of that already. He couldn’t leave him to suffer without guidance, at the very least. Though, what Tyr thought he could do about a deal with the Unseelie, he wasn’t entirely sure.

He looked down to find his plate was empty. That was disappointing. He hadn’t even realized he’d eaten, and he really had been looking forward to actually tasting the meal the innkeepers had given him. Groaning a little at his own ability to become lost in thought, he plucked up the plate and headed toward the kitchen, slipping through the door to find a basin of dirty dishes at his right elbow. There was a boy scrubbing the floor and a big, bubbling pot in the fireplace, but no sign of Asha or Calum. He carefully set the plate on top of another and backed out.

He took the steps to his room at a trudge as his mind turned the possible means of entering the viscount’s enormous, castle-like home over in his mind. If there was a shutter on the young lord’s window, that wasn’t a likely entry point, and it wouldn’t be prudent to just stroll up and request an audience. There was no doubt plenty of charlatans had cropped up to offer miracle cures and treatments since the viscount’s soon took ill.

But he wasn’t ill. He was plagued by a deal with the Fae.

Thunking his head against his door, Tyr shoved the key into the lock, wiggled it a bit, and gave it a turn, just like he was shown. Raghnal sent him here without much more than a poorly scribbled map in his mind, and he was getting tired of things being more difficult than they needed to be because the Fae were so damn short-sighted.

Well, at least he’d have time to think about it, since his hostess confiscated his shoes and the clothes he had arrived in. His new garb was comfortable, and it was certainly within the realm of Angharathan fashion—the pants were a dark green, and the shirt a paler shade, with a black vest to top it off. The muted colors he had worn previously were much more to his taste. It seemed that the farther south one went, the more vibrant and celebratory their fashion became. It was beautiful to look at, but Tyr felt like he stood out when he wore anything more vibrant than gray.

“Milord?”

Perhaps he would not have so much time to think about it. He hauled himself up and tugged the door open to find Asha with his boots in hand. They weren’t pristine, exactly, but she’d brushed them clean and even oiled the dark brown leather for him. He took them from her and smiled his gratitude.

“Thank you. I don’t typically keep my things in such disrepair.”

“Of course not, a young lord like yourself.” He couldn’t really tell if she was teasing him, but he suspected she thought the filthy lord with awkward language skills and no money was quite funny, indeed. “See that you keep them clean now. Goodnight.” She shut the door behind her, and left him standing there with his boots in his hand.

Without excuses left to keep him from his investigation, Tyr pulled his boots on and left the inn as discreetly as he possibly could. Asking after rumors and noble houses, then disappearing after dark, wasn’t likely to inspire much trust from his hosts. They did seem like very decent people, and the errand he was on wouldn’t find him welcome under the roofs of very decent people. The Fae were a touchy subject anywhere, but the commonfolk were more superstitious than most.

As he left the inn and followed the streets to the theatre district, Tyr noticed that people began to thin out quickly the closer he grew to his destination. When he stopped to ask directions, the man he’d asked offered only a suspicious look over, and nodded down the correct road with a jut of his pointed chin. At the end of the road, where Tyr expected hawkers for entertainment and song to be at every doorway, and buskers to be peppering street corners, filling the area with light and life, there were only a handful of guttering streetlamps and the occasional passerby.

As promised, though, the viscount’s home towered just beyond the empty theatres and what he assumed were taverns without a single glimmer of life beyond their windows. A wall separated the estate house from the streets, and, as Tyr approached, he spotted a shadowed deviation in the tower above. From where he stood, it looked as though it could very well be a shutter strapped in iron.

The shadows that spilled from the grounds of the estate house were convenient, though Tyr had to assume it wasn’t due to an abundance of trust. As he crept along the length of the wall, he heard the guards speaking lowly between themselves beyond it, and, dimly, he could see the meager torchlight in little semi-circle halos just overhead.

If he reached, his fingertips would just barely grace the top of the wall, just below where the small peak rose, swelling to keep any climbers out. It was no deterrent to Tyr. Hands in his pockets, he slid along the shadow of the wall, eyes following that peak for several minutes, curving with it as it curved, until, at last, the bubbles of radiant light stopped appearing above.

With a cautious glance back and forth, Tyr set his feet apart and pressed a palm to the weathered stone that divided the street from the viscount’s estate grounds. Blue fissures crackled from his fingertips to his wrists, fading into the flesh at the forearm. The glow in the cracks blossomed and the stones under his palm dissolved into gravel, the breach spreading outward until there was a sizable hole in the wall. The cracks in his skin dimmed and faded until it was as if they were never there.

Hands stuffed back into his pockets, he ducked through the small doorway he created, gravel crunching under his feet. The way in was easy, but the way up….

Guards lined the path to the estate house, and the walkway wound back on itself twice from his vantage. How many guarded the door in? How many in the hallways? The concept of infiltrating this place with any measure of secrecy was beginning to feel impossible. Manipulating the dark had never been a gift Tyr had been graced with, so using the shadows for anything more than a shoddy hiding place was out of the equation.

There was the possibility that he could create a stairway from the stones leading up to the young man’s shuttered window—but that would be noisy, he couldn’t hide on the wall, and how was he supposed to get into the shut-up room? Knock?

He heaved a quiet sigh and raked a hand through his hair as he scanned the grounds for anything that might unlock the potential for some grand idea. Eventually, someone would pass this way and notice the gaping hole in the wall, and then what?

Tyr was, in fact, not much of a planner.

At least now he knew what the guard detail looked like. He turned back through his hole, but a jolt shot through him when a scream tore through the night. Spinning in the gravel, he nearly lost his footing as the wooden shutter burst into splinters overhead, sending the twisted iron bars clattering to the street beyond the wall.

And the viscount’s son came plunging after.

Fiction Friday, writing

Flash Fiction Friday 10.08.2021

A day late because I can’t schedule correctly! Sorry guys!
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The boys took turns holding their hands over the candle flame. A test of will. Of strength and daring. Ven looked on from the corner, glancing over the top of his book.
“Afraid?” Destin asked, jutting his chin in Ven’s direction.
Ven only shook his head, but he didn’t rise. The boys laughed at him and went back to their stupid game.
And Ven turned another page in Flame of the Old Gods: an Introduction to Incendiary Magic.

Fae's Light, writing

Fae’s Light, Chapter 2

The silence sat heavy on Tyr’s shoulders as he was ushered away from the camping performers. When the shadows of the rocky terrain finally swallowed them, the procession of hooded figures melted into the night. Tyr squinted, head swiveling as he was left alone with Raghnal.

“What is this?” he asked as firmly as he could manage while his stomach churned with an acidic suspicion.

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Fiction Friday

Flash Fiction Friday, 10/01/2021

Image text: “Mind the barrier. Children must be attended at all times,” the monotone voice blared through the speakers, echoing in the crowded holding chamber. The barrier, a grid of light, surrounded the platform where hundreds of people waited, pulsing in a soft blue light to alert passers of its proximity.Joy stared flatly as it swelled and dimmed in a relaxed cadence, taunting her with what lay beyond.They said it was emptiness, a void to hold the waypoints between worlds, that no one could survive beyond the light. But she heard them–keening, wailing–not with her ears, but with something more. The voices, like tragic, terrifying whale song, pulled at her with invisible string, dragging her toward the grid of pulsing light. She came here for the waypoint, but there was something in the dark outside, howling in the void.The emptiness beyond the barrier caller to her–she just didn’t know how to answer.

Writing Progress Wednesdays

Struggling and World Building

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Lately, I think we’ve all been struggling with the effects of COVID-19 and the constant drive to keep our heads above water. So, this week’s #WritingProgressWednesday is focusing on bringing myself back together.

My husband is still working at Target during this whole disaster. I’ve been lucky enough to have him home for the last week on what would have been our anniversary vacation, but it’s not quite the same. He goes back to work on Saturday. We’ve made him masks to wear, just in case. He deals with a lot of people every day.

I spent the better part of March panicking over COVID-19, but I’m not there anymore. I’m sad. Tired. Unable to process the numbers. Florida is a growing train wreck, and I’m never quite sure what’s going to burst into flames next. Every press release is worst than the last.

Needless to say, depression has pulled me away from the writing that I’ve been desperately trying to get back to. It’s always a struggle–the depression and anxiety–trying to balance when I feel best and where my focus can be applied, if I have any focus to give at all. The virus has amplified these issues, but it’s not like they weren’t already there.

So, I’ve got over 200 pages of ms to edit and restructure. I have the same six chapters left to finish the primary story line in the first draft of PSCW. I’m pulling information I wrote on the fly and creating a world building bible for that world–though it really does need a lot of fleshing out. I’m missing so much, it’s a little intimidating.

For now, with the world building and the work I have ahead of me with PSCW and Fae’s Light, I have plenty to work through. I just need to find the drive to push through my issues to get to the end of it.

How are you all handling isolation or continuing to work? Stay safe. ❤

Writing Progress Wednesdays

Shooting for a New Day Job & Friday

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Writing took a bit of a back seat this last week, unfortunately. I’ve had a handful of doctor’s appointments to deal with some issues that have built up over the last year. It’s been hell on my anxiety, but I feel like, from a health standpoint, I’m pushing in the right direction.

On top of the doctor’s appointments, I’ve gone through two job interviews for a pet store, with a third this afternoon. It’s been a very busy, but fairly positive week, as long as I’m looking past the anxiety hellpit that follows me around from time to time.

FAE’S LIGHT chapter one is undergoing a quick edit and reworking, and will be up on Friday. Pretty short post today. Stay tuned for Fiction Friday. ❤